church

I have not lived in Hattiesburg that long. I moved here during the summer and I have not found a church to go to yet. I am Penecostal and I can not find the right church. I loved the church I used to go to back home, but I have not been able to find one quite like it here. The churches are too drastic or too big here. I think I might need to look outside Hattiesburg for one. I need to be in church, but I do not want to go to a corupt one. My boyfreind refuses to go to church with me and I guess I will be going by myself. That is why I want to find one that I am confortable with and feel safe at. I do comit a lot of sins and I know that going to church is not going to save me and keep me from going to hell. It just helps me as a person to go and realize the things I do wrong and what I need to be doing. I do things everyday that are wrong and I do not even realize it. I know that talking about religion is a controversial thing, but it is important to me. I wonder sometimes that if I would do the right thing if I would feel better as a person? I am sure that I would, but it is so hard to be a good persn everyday when we are around things that are unavoidable. I see how the older generations are more content with their lives and I wonder that people now days would turn to religion our lives would feel more meaningful and content.

decisions

I know that I am young and I do not know a lot about life, but I am confused. I have been with my boyfriend for three years and thing have always been wishy washy at times. We moved in together this year. He is three years older than me, but he definitley doesn't act his age. Since we have moved in together things have got a lot worse. I know people have to learn to live with others, but I thought I knew him better that I really did. He does a lot of things that I do not approvee of, but I have finally gave up the fight and now I ignore those things. I do not want to be that kind of person. He tells me how much he loves me, but he does not try to work on anything and make things better. I am the one who tries to make things better and it doesn't work without his part too. I do love him, but I am not happy anymore and he doesn't care to listen or talk about it. Also, another problem is that we do not see eye to eye on a lot of things. He expects me to date him for 8 or 9 years before we get married. I am not willing to do that. You can not put a time line on things like that. I think that this is my fault because we are practically married without the papers and now he sees no reason to get married. My grandmother has always told me,"Why buy the cow when the milk is free?". I always thought that she was old fashioned and crazy, but know that makes sense. Is it my fault that we are having these problems? Is it everyone's fault for realtionships failing because we do things backwards? I do not know the answers to these questions, but it does make you wonder that if we did things like the older generations did, would we have less failed realtionships and marriages?

My house

I know that I do live with my boyfriend, but I did not sign up to live with him and his cousin. His cousin moved into the extra bedroom to cut back on rent, which was a good thing. Until I have been living with them for 4 months. They destroy the house everyday and I have to clean it up. Everybody always tells me not to clean it up and they will. Okay... I have tried that on several occassions and it has not worked yet. I am OCD about having the house clean and everything put in its place. I go to school in the morning and then to work in the afternoon. I usually do not get off till about 10 or 11. When I get home they are drunk and passed out in the middle of the mess they have made in the house. I have to clean it all up and then go do homework. I finally get to go to sleep and wake up in the morning and do it all over again. I wouldn't mind if it was a little cleaning, but it is hours worth of cleaning everyday. I am exhausted and getting very tired of it. But, if I say anything then I am being bossy and a control freak. I am seriously reconsidering living here next year. I am about to burn out and I can not handle those two much longer. I want to have nice things in my house, but I do not want them tearing it up. I have a $300 rug I got for my birthday last year and they have already spilt beer and anything else you can think of on it. There is no way I am going to buy nice furniture for them to ruin.

thanksgiving

I was excited about Thanksgiving until the week finally came. I was thankful for getting out of school for a few days, but then I found out that I had to work the whole break. My dad and his family went to Colorado for nine days and of course I couldn't go because of work and school. The only day I got off from work was Thanksgiving day because Outback is closed. It was so hard for me to visit my family in one day. I wanted to spend more time with my mom and little brothers, but there was nothing I could do. I miss my family, but I have to work so much I don't get to see them as much as I would like to. The same thing is probably going to happen Christmas time. I had to eat with my grandmother that morning and then with my mom at lunch. Then that night I had to eat with my boyfriend's family, which I can't stand to be around. I was so full by that night that I was miserable. I did not have to leave until 3 Friday afternoon because I did not have to be at work until 5:30. So, I got to spend a little extra time with my mom, but not enough considering how much I get to come home. My parents are always amd at me because I never get to see them. Maybe Christmas break will give me some extra time to see them.

classes

I am so frustrated with trying to register for classes for next semester. It is ridiculous that almost every class I want is taken. I went straight to soar to set up my classes after I left my advisor. The classes were already full. This same problem happened this summer. It is not like I wait to the last minute or anything. I actually do my schedule stuff early and it does not even matter because no matter how early I do it, classes are still going to be gone. I think Southern has too many students and not enough classes. That is the reason I only have 13 hours this semester and I am going to have to make it up during the summer. I have to have 19 hours a semester to graduate on time. That is impossible to do and work an almost full-time job. I am going to have my work cut out for me in the summer. I have 16 hours for next semester, but they are not classes I exactly wanted and not all of them are the times I needed. Oh well..... Maybe I will do better if I register for the next fall semester in February.

Campus Crime

I went to a high school that had a lot of crime and violence , so things do not bother me as much as they do other people. I did not really think crime would be going on in college as much because people that go to school there want to better themselves; high school is mandatory so I kind of understand. In the past couple of weeks things have been happening at school. The first I remember is someone getting their wallet stolen, which is not that bad i guess. The next thing I heard was there was a "shoot out" back behind Bond Hall. Which I do not know if that was true becuase I did not get an email about it from the school like I had for the other stuff. The last thing I heard was that Seymour's was robbed. I do not understand why kids in college would want to jepordaize their education for something stupid like that. Which on the other hand it might be someone who does not attend Southern... I do not know, but it is really getting out of hand. I know there is crime everywhere you go, but for some reason people feel safe at school. I feel that way sometimes, but in all reality it is not safer. I know I have complained about parking time and time again, but it is not safe for a girl to park far off at night and walk to her dorm. I work till midnight at least and when I would come home I would have to park so far away. It is not safe for me to walk like that late at night alone. As I recall, two girls got raped not long too long ago because they parked back behind Bond Hall late at night. That is one of the reasons I moved off campus this semester... Like I said before, crime is everywhere, but would it not be nice to know that school was a safe place.

Living on Campus

Living on campus is not all its cracked up to be. Everyone always told me that I needed to live on campus my first year of college. Well of course I listened to them. That was a bad idea. Living on campus is way more expensive than living in an apartment or a house. Then they make you get a eating plan, which is expensive also becasue all the food on campus is over priced. Some people may love living on campus, but it just isn't for me. My dorm is suppose to be nicer one, that is scary to think of what the less nice ones look like. Don't get me wrong, I do have more room in mine that the other freshman dorms, but my is soo run down and old. People say that living in a dorm makes you more social. When in fact it does not make me more social and I have not really met any new people. My dorm is really inconvienant for me. I go to school and I work all the time. It is hard for me to get back and forth because I work on the other side of town and it takes a ridiculous amount of time to find a parking place or to walk to where I had to park. I know that I sound negative, but I am just really unhappy with my dorm situatuion. I am not living on campus next semester because it will be cheaper. The problem there is I have to pay a huge amount to get out of it. I have learned my lesson and I should have researched it more. The only bad thing is that I love my room mates, but they understand.

Jamie Lynn

I have been reading the tabloids a lot lately and all the stuff with Jamie Lynn is overwhelming. I feel really bad for her becuase she is only 17 and she just had a brand new baby. On top of that she was planning to get married to her boyfriend, who is the father, and she just found out that he was cheating on her the whole time they were togehter and while she was pregnant. When she found that out she was stupid and gave him another chance. Then she found out that he cheated on her with another girl a couple of days after she had the baby. She finally kicks him out and he gets cut off from all her money. He has the nerve to try to go to court and get custody of the baby after all that he has done. He demands that she give him the house, cars, child, and extra money every month. First of all, they are not married, she is underage, and he has been doing very wrong. He will not be able to get the child becuase her parents are still her legal guardian, but if he wants to pursue court later he better get ready. After everything he has done and it is in every magazine, he will not get anything and he will have to end up paying her money. I think she did the right thing and if it were me, my family would probably end up killing him....Literally. I just wonder what his parents think of him and I bet they feel like they have failed as parents because he has turned into such a horrible person. What he is worried about is they money because she paid for everything of his. Also, those two girls that cheated with him and knew for a fact that he was with Jamie Lynn and that they were having a baby are some low down, scum of the earth people.

Sarah Palin

I know last week that I said I wasn't too found of Palin. I still do not like her feelings on Pro-Choice , but that is not a good reason to rule her out compleletly. I am really getting tired of seeing every news channel talking about her so bad. It is really no one's business what is going on in her family right now. She is totally capable of being a good VP. Just becuase her daughter is pregnant does not mean she can't help run our country. That also doesn't mean she is not a good parent. It doesn't matter how much she teaches her kids the right thing to do , they are still going to make their own decisions. I think people are so focused on her because she is a woman. We don't really hear anything about Obama's VP... probably because he is a man. People are so focused on finding something wrong with her. Everyone's family is not perfect and no one should expect her family to be flawless. It's just not normal. I know she is a Republican and all of htem are souppose to be perfect cookie cutter people, but it's really not realisic. I think all the publicity she si getting is helping McCain, so I guess the Democrats plan has back fired. This morning when I watched the news McCain was ahead. We will just have to see what happens. The media needs to leave her family alone because they are not the ones running in the campaign.

Our Next President

I'm really having a hard time deciding on who to vote for president. Since the beginning I have not liked Obama, but now I'm having second thoughts about McCain. I thought I wanted to vote for McCain and now I'm not so sure. The problem is with his vice president. I'm glad it's a woman, but it seems like a ploy to me. I think he chose her because he wants to try and get Hilary's votes. Another reason I believe he chose her is to get the oil from Alaska, I mean she is the governer of Alaska. I don't believe he chose her for her abilities, but instead to get more votes. One thing I don't like about her is her view on abortion. I know Republicans are usually against abortion, but I don't like what she said in her speech. She said she wants to make abortions illegal in every state and even illegal for women who have been raped or incest. I believe that is wrong. If someone has been raped then I don't think they should be punished even more and have to bear a child if they don't want to. She is trying to enforce her religious views on others. I think everyone should have their own opinion, but that doesn't mean she should take away a woman's right to choose. I really can't say what's right and wrong, and neither can she. I have relgious beliefs too, but you can not force them on others like she is trying to do. That is what America's about... Free religion. If this does become illegal then lots of women are going to get hurt because they are going to do it regardless. It should not be used as a method of birth control, but it should be there as a choice. I know she is just the vice president, but she can have an influence on the president. I know that really doesn't seem like a big deal, but it is to me for some reason. I'm still going to vote for McCain, but she makes me have second thoughts.

Get To Know Me

I am so excited about this school year. It is my first time to live away from home and in a new town. I love Southern's Campus. My dorm is pretty good. I live in Mississippi Hall with four other girls. I am having fun with them so far. Our dorm is really old and you can tell when you look at it. We really don't see a lot of each other beacuse they all are cheerleaders. I go to school in the morning and work at night. I'm a nursing major and I'm so excited about all the classes I get to take. I love studying sciences and psychologies. I also like to write. I was a pretty good writer in high school, from what I was told. I hope that I do as well now as I did then. Some of my other hoobies are tennis, bowling, dancing, and swimming. I love to hang out with my friends and my family. I really do miss my family because it is hard to make time to visit. A lot of people I know go to school here are live in Hattiesburg, so I wasn't completely lost when I moved here this summer. My boyfriend lives here, but he didn't move here until a year after we started dating. So I've beeen back and forth her for the past two years and I've learned my way around town pretty well know. Well, now you know pretty much a lot about me. See ya'll in class Thursday.